He’s told you he loves you so many times by now that you actually almost believe him. Well, those words at least let you believe he thinks he loves you.

But it’s not the words.

It’s the way he never forgets to set the alarm at night, even after an especially ‘rough’ bout of fucking.

The way he always remembers to order the turkey on rye with no mayonnaise.

The way he never asks how you’re feeling at night after a long bitch of a day at work; he just knows.

It’s the way he works so hard in school, not just because he wants to get ahead; he told you once when he was drunk he would prove to him he was worth the ‘investment’.

When you’ve got a hangover to rival all hangovers, it’s how he puts the aspirin and water next to the bed. And then blows you in the shower the next morning.

Sometimes…

Maybe someday-

Well, you may never tell him in so few words you love him. I love you.

But eventually…eventually, you’ll be as brave as he is.

Someday, you may become at least half as brave as he is, and finally tell him, just let him know, that you may not be able to say you love him, but…

You’ll be able to at least tell him you love that he’s with you.

I was the only,
I was the friend.
I was the path.
I was the bend.

I was the lonley,
I was the heart.
I was the evil,
I was the start.

I was the other,
I was the one.
I was the sorrow,
I was the sun.

I was the square,
I was the straight.
I was the horror,
I was the break.

I was the run,
I was the race.
I was the elegance,
I was the grace.

I was the mother,
I was the child.
But now all the memories,
Are running wild.

So, yeah. I haven't actually won it over, but I'm getting there.

Sometimes the cognition of freedom can be more binding then any chain.
And in those times, only your will can consternate you.

Too bad for the idiot across the tAble.

"Respect your elders..."

If that's case, then I will never ask for respect.

Oh, I have plenty of issues.

Wanna buy some?

Alright, time for a major post. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH! OH MY FUCKING GOD!

Okay, here're my four favorite sayings:

1. I don't suck, I blow.
2. I've just seen the face of a God and his name is Brian Kinney.
3. So I was swimming in the Jealou-sy but now I'm just drowing in De Nile.
4. The sweetest lemons are always forgotten.

Hahahaha. Yea, I had a lot of expresso today. EEEXXXXPPPPRREEEESSSSSSSSOO MY ASS!

( Always up or down, Never down and out... )

The King and Queen decreed:

And let it be remembered for all ever, this harangue on insanity; in which free will and self intentions shall be spited and disavowed.

Yea, that's how I feel right now. Goddamn stnrp.

I love this song.

No fics, I know I'm slacking, lol. I've kinda hit somewhat of a low so whatever, take some pity. Hmm, I don't have much to say. Good news, though. I now have 2 out 232 fics done. Onlyy 230 more to go. Jesus Bejesus.

Oh, very important lesson I learned the other day. I cannot lie for shit, although, I can't see why I'd ever want to (I'd rather lie for diamonds or something, lol). Yea, I guess I've been deluding myself. So either I stop lying all together, or I just get better at it.

Oh, and does anyone else what Steve and Rick or Rick and Steve (whatever XD) on Logo? I just got into and it's pretty funny, once you get over the whole lego people thing. Watch an episode if you haven't, it's pretty good.

I've decided no more carbs after 6pm or before 9am. Which leaves me in an extended period of appetency. And it sucks. Surprisingly enough though, my self control has lasted me almost 6 days. And I've officially started counting calories. Highest intake in the past six days: 420. Lowest: 120. I wonder how long I can last like this. XD

Alright well, I know it seemed like a I kinda died there for a while, but I kinda lost my muse. But don't worry, it's back with a revenge. Oh, and you guys are gonna be so happy! I've signed up for like 5 different writing challenge communities, and all my subjects are the Brian/Justin pairing.

So you can look forward to 232 different BJ fics. Is that crazy or what?

Anyway, here are my prompt tables. As I finish a story, the theme I incorperated into it will be substituded with a link to the story. Enjoy!

( I want someone provacative and talkative )